Our Futures Deserve Our Attention

In the past, I searched for my one true purpose. Through time, and a vast amount of time of getting to know myself, I have discovered that one person can have many purposes. Now that I’m nearing my mid-thirties, I’ve never felt more comfortable in my own skin. My purposes (the many of them) have never been so clear.

Moments can define us as a whole person. As I look back at my life, it’s the single moments, and memories, that have made me the woman I am today. I can’t take in the view of my life like a set of rolling hills, and I certainly don’t remember my life as a roll of film.

In the movies, when someone is dying, you will see glimpses of their lives flash, singularly, inside of their mind. While this happens, they can see nothing else. Years ago, I lived as if that reel of moments were always clouding my future. I always looked back at what had formed me, and never looked forward to the person that it was helping me to become. I suppose we all do that in a way; it’s a very human thing to do. Living in hindsight is not a safe thing to do. You cannot see the dangers and happiness ahead. You don’t process; you just are.

I’ve transformed my life, my way of thinking and how much I look back. When I reach to the past, I do so to learn and not to stay. I don’t stay anywhere in the past long, as I don’t want to miss out on the future that is ready for me to be a part of it.

Whatever that future may be, it’s bright, full of lessons for those of us ready to age, and deserves two eager eyes to greet it.

I’m ready, future. Thanks, for waiting for me.

© 2014 Angela M. Carter.

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